give one’s attention to a sound.

an act of listening to something.

Not sure what this man was doing, but I do know he wanted to be heard. I was trying to memorize a script for Bloomberg TV and every time I started to read the copy, he made this sound. I guess most people would have gotten up and moved, since I was riding all the way to Fulton Street from Penn Station, but since I have completely surrendered to everything, I stayed and listened.

Amazingly enough no one said anything to him. We just all glanced at one another and smiled. An unspoken understanding that sometimes you just gotta get that stuff out. Sometimes you just want to be heard and what better place to make sure someone hears you, then a captive audience on a subway car during rush hour?

What upset me was that this man was obviously not being heard elsewhere. Who was it that wasn’t honoring him and what he had to say? Was it his wife? His kids? His boss? A Friend? I wondered.

It made me wonder if I am listening the best I can to the people in my life. Are they saying they are okay when they really aren’t? Am I listening with more than my ears? Because if we are really engaged, then we notice everything.

Most people would rather talk about anything which is usually nothing, then sit in silence or worse, tell you what they really think or how they really feel. From coffee flavors to coupons and the latest place they ate, it’s all a ruse to avoid real conversation. Just frivolous bullshit that makes me appreciate my alone time even moreso.

I was at a party a few weeks ago and one man brought up our current administration. Finally!  A “real” conversation. Well I dove right in. I believe our current president is hear to teach us all to be better people.  You can no longer stand on the sidelines and say how much you don’t like something, you have to take action. He is essentially forcing us all to look within and ask ourselves what we are willing to fight for, allow and forgive. He is a perfect example of someone who talks a lot but says nothing. And he’s not a very good listener either. He has awakened us all to listen better because what he says cannot go upon deaf ears.  We have way too much to lose.

You can’t keep turning away from things you don’t want to hear, which is why I stayed on the subway car. I knew there was a reason why I was there. Patience. I can always use a little more. Compassion. I should never forget to be kind. Humility. Because I never know when that could be me. Gratitude. I am grateful for the people in my life who do listen to me.

Sometimes we hear things we don’t want to. And sometimes we don’t listen when there is something we need to hear. The person who knows when to do both is the person we should all strive to be.





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Gretchen Allison

I love learning new skills and honing ones I already have. When I'm not trying new things I'm going to auditions, which I never tire of. I am blessed to have representation from some very wonderful agents and recently signed with an amazing manager. I am also an avid supporter of National Mill Dog Rescue and Dogs In Danger and usually have a foster dog or cat around.

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