You’re Fine!

“There’s no panacea, that in order to be balanced or feel closer to fine it’s okay to draw from this or to draw from that, to draw from a bunch of different sources. So it’s about being confused but looking for the answers, and in the end knowing that you’re going to be fine. No seeking just one definitive answer.” – Emily Saliers

This song came on the radio the other day and it got me thinking about a spiritual journey/awakening. When you start this path you have no idea where to turn. It can seem as if you are living in an alternate reality because people around you look at you like you’re speaking a different language when you speak outside of their beliefs, especially if they are ones you once held.

You might even try and tell them about what is happening, maybe even preach a little about what they are doing wrong, since you are now awakened to a completely different way of looking at things. This is when we veer off the path though because it’s not our job to shove our beliefs in someone’s face who isn’t ready to hear them. It’s best to start living your own truth and watch how others respond. You might lose some people along the way and it’s painful. Yeah, this journey can be a pretty lonely one. But stay the course. The rewards far outweigh the losses.

There is no end to this journey so don’t think just because you get to one place you’re done.  It keeps going. For this reason you have to take breaks. If you have a family this can be a challenge but you have to find the time to nurture yourself.
Go with the flow, do not try and control anything or anyone. Control is your ego thinking it knows what is best. When you react instead of responding to a person or situation, that is your ego at work. Respond as often as you can. There really is a difference.
When we are triggered we generally react. This is your souls way of alerting you to inner work that needs to be done. It’s not another person thing, it’s a you thing. They are just the messenger alerting you to an unhealed area you need to work on. Don’t shoot them with a sharp tongue and words that you will later regret.  Be grateful for the interaction. I’m not going to lie-this is a tough one. This has something that has kept me imprisoned in a cell of my own making called lack of self worth. But I have finally found the key and you will too if you haven’t already. Love the self.
Awake each day and say aloud the things you are grateful for. It could be as small as the new coffee you discovered or for the health of your family or for waking in the first place.
Meditate. Close your damn eyes for at least 5 minutes and breathe. The more you concentrate on hearing your breath, the less distracting all of the thoughts in your head are. Do yoga if you can. It’s another great way to listen to your breath.
I don’t breathe enough. Most of us probably don’t. I noticed the other day that I was short of breath, so now I actually sit still and force myself to breathe deeply. I know that an open heart is a healthy one, which means I can give freely of my love without holding back. I wonder how long the damn thing has been closed! Scary!
I am working hard on doing nothing. God is it hard! I have fought myself for the greater part of my life thinking I always had to do something. I was wrong. Being present in every moment is doing enough. Try it and see what I mean.
Read books from people who are on this journey and have gone through the same things. You can’t talk about this path to everyone cause if they are’t on it they might look at you like you have seven heads. It’s best to do your work and trust that you are being lead to a place of wholeness.
Think of it this way: the more you love yourself, the more you can love others. The people in your life will notice the changes in you; hopefully for the better. If someone thinks your spiritual growth is hindering their life, then you need to enforce some boundaries. It might be hard at first, but once you realize the love of yourself is vital in order for you to love anyone else, it gets easier.
My favorite author at present is Matt Kahn. I have watched his You Tube videos and have both of his books. He is absolutely impossible to watch if you’re not ready, so if you find yourself getting frustrated with what he is saying, give it some space and come back. I have actually gone back and watched him after taking a break (which is vital on this journey) and heard him in a whole new light.
Every day changes. Some days I feel like I am going backwards and haven’t evolved at all. Today is a good one. I think I am finally getting it. My job is to love myself so much that nothing and no one can rattle me. I am here to bring unconditional love not only to myself but to everyone I come in contact with.

The world is in dire need of love.  So if you are reading this, then you must be on the same journey with me. Matt Kahn calls it the Love Revolution. I have embraced this path with animals for as long as I can remember, but it is now time for me to give back on an even bigger scale.
Whatever calls to your soul is the right call to answer. Remember that there are no wrong ways on the path to enlightenment. If I had to simplify it, I would liken it to being lost at sea or at least thinking that you are and then realizing you had oars in the belly of the boat the whole time that could have gotten you home, all you had to do was open your eyes and look within.
So look within! Know without a doubt that you are unique, you have something to offer and you are here to raise the vibration of our world with one act of kindness at a time. But it all begins with being kind to yourself first.
I’m tryin’ to tell you somethin’ ’bout my life
Maybe give me insight between black and white
And the best thing you’ve ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously
It’s only life after all, yeah
Well darkness has a hunger that’s insatiable
And lightness has a call that’s hard to hear
I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety ’til I sank it
I’m crawling on your shores
And I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountains
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine
And I went to see the doctor of philosophy
With a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his knee
He never did marry or see a B-Grade movie
He graded my performance, he said he could see through me
I spent four years prostrate to the higher mind
Got my paper and I was free
I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountains
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine, yeah
I stopped by the bar at three A.M.
To seek solace in a bottle, or possibly a friend
And I woke up with a headache like my head against a board
Twice as cloudy as I’d been the night before
And I went in seeking clarity
I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountains
We go to the doctor, we go to the mountains
We look to the children, we drink from the fountain
Yeah, we go to the Bible, we go through the work out
We read up on revival, we stand up for the lookout
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine, yeah

 

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Gretchen Allison

Actress/Model, supporter of Dogs In Danger, National Mill Dog Rescue and a Fellow Barber in training. I love the ocean, people with integrity, deep house music, travel, learning new skills and margaritas. Not necessarily in that order. I wrote a chick-lit book called Oh Shiksa! which is a great beach read. You can purchase it on Amazonhttps://www.amazon.com/Oh-Shiksa-Line-Wealthy-Always-ebook/dp/B005CI7DC8/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1530100995&sr=8-1&keywords=oh+shiksa

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