I usually wake every morning around 5am. It’s not by choice. I have a cat named Milo who stares at me until I do. He wants to be fed. Sometimes he wakes me much earlier but I push him off the bed and he goes to his bed on the floor until I feel his eyes glaring at me again.
Since I’m up and he’s fed, I put on my sneakers and go for a walk. Surprisingly, there are usually a few early birds like myself out there. I always say hello to everyone and quite often people don’t say anything back. I know we are still living in a pandemic world, but people didn’t say hello before it, so I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that they can’t even make eye contact now.
But somehow I am. It really disturbs me because every day I wake up in a good mood, but when I leave my house, I see so much anger, fear and rudeness, I just want to stay inside.
Yesterday I took my middle son to the dentist and a man honked at me because I didn’t accelerate fast enough at the light. Me, who drinks at least 4 cups of coffee every morning not moving fast enough!
Why are people in such a hurry? Where are they going that is so important, that it trumps being polite?
Last week I was at the grocery store, which is now likened to being a mouse in a maze with all of the lines on the floor telling you which way to go, that I can’t stand being there anymore. Just when I figured out where everything was in the place, they go and put tape on the floor and I have to walk up two aisles to get to the one I want.
Not such a problem as problems go, right? But when you have to wait to be called now to check out, the line gets pretty long and your grocery time is now doubled. Some people don’t like this. Personally I could care less! My life as an actress is diminishing by the day due to this fucking covid, so I’ve got nothing but time on my hands now.
There was one woman though, who wasn’t having any of it. She had a handful of items and didn’t want to wait like the rest of us; actually refused to.
“You don’t mind if I go in front of you, do you?” She said, as she placed herself right in front of me and the five people waiting behind.
Me, a person who has let three people go ahead of me in line before, probably would have offered her the courtesy, but she didn’t even allow for it. I was astonished at her audacity. So I let her know.
Sometimes, no matter how spiritual you are, no matter how much you tap, no matter how much of your time you give to others for free, no matter how many dogs you save, how many birds you feed, no matter how many children you help that come to your door asking for money, no matter how many things you give away to charities, you gotta express how you feel about someone like that and I think it’s perfectly fine.
I’m not a perfect person, but I’m about as close to an earth angel that you’re gonna find. So I let her know how I felt about her cutting the line.
“Of course I don’t mind! You are far more important than I am.” I said, big smile with teeth.
She didn’t quite know what to do with that. She looked around confused, like she had just smelled something bad and then turned to me and said, “That’s not what I think.”
“But of course you do! It’s fine! Go ahead!” Big smile again.
And of course…she did! She kept trying to thank me as she bagged her items but I didn’t even look at her. I chose to ignore her on purpose. My thought is, if you’e going to be an asshole, own it.
So while a lot of the world is choosing to be rude, taking a me-first attitude and ignoring someone simply saying hello, I choose kindness, beauty and love. And if I’m ever having a hard time staying committed to that path, I put on this piece of music and am taken to a place of hope.
Music speaks to me always. I hope it speaks to you in some way as well. May the posts you read here combined with music bring about laughter, inspiration, a few tears (only a few) and the sheer belief that anything is possible.