I love summer! Flip flops (actually I wear those year round), pool time, sun time, relaxation, cool breeze, warm breeze, birds chirping, butterflies flitting to and fro and going to the beach.
Sadly, I haven’t been to the beach yet this summer. We’re almost in August and somehow my favorite place in the world hasn’t even been on my radar. I want it to be, I just haven’t had time or the chutzpah for it.
This has to change! And it will. Every day I wake up, I get closer to this life I know I was meant to live, yet somehow escaped me. Inundated with packing boxes, having my kids sift through their childhoods that have sat on shelves for 18 years and having them literally throw out what they don’t want has been taxing and quite frankly, pathetically sad and unnecessary. This entire process has been utterly ridiculous, idiotic, mind blowing, a total fuckery and yet somehow completely predictable.
My future, like theirs, is going to be quite temporary for awhile. One location to another location will be the name of the game until we all get to our destinations. It’s okay, we will be okay, because we are strong and have one another. In fact, I think we are ready.
We said goodbye to our house already and it has now become nothing more than a physical structure to us. Funny how this happens. It’s not personal, it’s vibrational (I love this quote). Everything has an energy and our home doesn’t have ours anymore. Like the beach, it just sits here waiting for someone to make a splash in it, love it and bask in its glory.
I currently have a really nice apartment that I share with my youngest son. It was a necessary move for the time being, but not a permanent one. There is no art on the walls because I don’t plan on staying there long. Getting another house is the plan, because I will not live without animals, but I have no plans to buy one while my son finishes high school; I’ll wait until I make my final move down south for that. I actually look forward to this bohemian style life that is upon me. I’m going to do a lot of traveling with my boys and cherish each and every moment of peace and tranquility.
In the meantime, I am going to make it my mission to get to the beach and enjoy a little bit of summer. I think I’ve earned it. Hope you are enjoying your summer wherever you are!