The Greatest Love

I have been on a spiritual journey, journey of self discovery, whatever you want to call it, for about 11 years now. This particular journey has not been one I would call fun. In fact, it was the exact opposite.

Everything I thought about myself wasn’t true, people who had roles in my life didn’t always have my best interest and I learned that I had spent most of my life looking outside of myself for love instead of looking within.

It wasn’t until I started delving into tapping that I realized what had been keeping me stuck in a loop of pain. I literally had no idea how transformative tapping could be. I had heard of it before and scoffed at the idea as it seemed so ridiculous, but after just one session, it made such perfect sense to me.

The only caveat to tapping, is that you never see anything the same way again. Like the Matrix, when Nio takes the pill, you wake up to your life for the first time and can’t believe what you have bought into. More aptly, what you believed to be true about yourself, based solely on those who raised you and their perceptions of the world.

Once I realized my view of the world was never really mine, it became easy to release the views that never served me, but had served others my entire life. And this is where the real transformation for me began.

When you fully grasp the concept of loving yourself, you have no need for anything outside of you ever again. You don’t feel the need for company just for the sake of being with people and aren’t willing to compromise your time for those who don’t value you. You don’t need sex either, because what you want is to be wooed by somebody’s mind first and see where that leads.

When you fully grasp love of the self, you understand how futile it is to keep seeking out there for what you can give yourself. You’ll know when you have reached this state, because you have this aha moment where you realize what you have been searching for, has been there all along, it just took you waking up to…you.

Follow the Breadcrumbs!

Are you seeing repeating numbers? 1111,111,222,333,444,or 555?

These are signs from the Universe, Angels, whatever you believe, to wake up and start living your life; to essentially be a gypsy.

What is a gypsy anyway? A free-spirited person who roams the land searching for a better place.

If you have received this call, via repeating numbers, you are being asked to answer it. Sure, you can ignore it for awhile, but eventually the numbers show up all the time. I saw 1111 for over a year twice a day. Sometimes I would see 1111 and then 111 all in the same day.

I didn’t know what the numbers meant, I just found it peculiar, so I looked it up. This is what it said, “1111 is a wake-up call that tells us to prepare for something greater to come. It’s a time to manifest our intentions and take action to achieve our visions. Remember: thoughts are energy, and energy creates! Seeing the first¬†1111¬†can help us to know it’s time to take the first step and incite action.”

What action you might ask. Well, anything you feel called to do. Maybe you’re a banker and you really want to be a painter. Take a class! Who knows where it will lead. The point is, you do something that nurtures your soul.

1111 is a call to your soul. Not the person you thought you were supposed to be for others, but the one you authentically are. You are being asked to be the gypsy. To take flight on a journey back to the self; the one you lost as you grew up and grew away from who you truly are.

I did not post yesterday on any of my platforms. I didn’t feel called to. The whole idea of the card reading page is for you to get back to your intuition. We all have it, we just block it out. Some of us don’t even hear the little voice inside us because we have become numb to it and listen to all of the ones around us instead.

Follow your intuition and if you don’t know what that sounds like, follow the numbers instead. They are trying to lead you back to you.

There are many more Angel Numbers, these are just the ones I see frequently.

111-All about you baby! It’s your destiny. It’s time to start manifesting.

222- You are out of balance. Reassess actions and priorities.

333-Acknowledge your higher purpose.

444- Also about balance but positivity and hopefulness. You are on the right track.

555-Change is on the horizon.


There comes a point in all of our lives where we are asked to believe in the impossible. Whether that has to do with your work, your health, the health of another, or the love you seek out there somewhere.

We might wait for what seems like an eternity, or a thousand years for this magical moment to appear, but when it does we are seldom ready for it.

We are usually preoccupied with other things and thus, we don’t even recognize a miracle, or something we wished for, prayed for, that is right in front of us.

It may not look like what we thought, or present itself in a manner that we had imagined, but it appears none the less, from the heavens of which we asked it. This is a test from the Universe to see how badly we really want it.

Often times we dismiss it, assuming it is too good to be true, but later on we realize how perfect it really was and we feel as though it is too late to do anything about it, for we have already dismissed it as though it were commonplace and are now left with feelings of despair.

But it is never too late. Time is merely an illusion and there is no amount of time, even a thousand years, that can keep the truth away.

The heart wants what the heart wants, so why deny it?

Follow your heart! No matter what what you wished for really looks like, sounds like or the manner in which it appears. It is what you wished for after all and the Universe never disappoints.


I couldn’t help it with this one! This was a terrific disco song, but more than that, a rather interesting love song.

I like to cook! I had a restaurant in my twenties in Texas that served Italian food. I was not Italian, nor was my partner at the time, but he was a chef who wanted a restaurant and an Italian one was for sale, so we bought it.

Our relationship had already had its share of ups and downs and well, you can imagine that buying a restaurant and working together 80 hours a week was a recipe for disaster.

I wanted out for awhile, but I had also married young and took those vows very seriously. I committed to making it work, thinking it was all because of the restaurant that we were having even more problems and focused on getting back to who we used to be when we first met.

When all was said and done I was left with a pile of bills and all of our animals because all of that sweet icing we had once shared seemed to melt, once he met someone else.

There were days when I honestly didn’t think I could go on. We owed money to everyone, including a bank for our mortgage and yet somehow I ended up being stuck with it all. My sister and my friend, Sue were there for me as I tried to navigate my life without a map let alone any direction. As the days passed and they turned into weeks, I was forced to come out of it because I had no other choice. They say that depression is a luxury and it certainly wasn’t one I could afford.

Once I entered back into the kitchen of life, it was as if by magic that doors seemed to open for me. I was given little bits of a recipe but not all of the ingredients. People willing to help me, actually wanting to. A bike to get to work, then a car. Jobs from friends, furniture when I needed it, places to live and finally Cosmetology school, when the yellow pages randomly dropped on the floor at the office job I was working.

I don’t usually follow recipes to the exact directions. This perplexes people,especially when it comes to measuring. I just throw stuff in the bowl. I always add this or that or remove something I don’t want as well. I like to allow for different ingredients and possibilities, instead of being so committed to a rigid format. When we allow ourselves this freedom, life has a way of showing us just how miraculous and mysterious it is.

Often times we think we have met the love of our lives, when in fact we have met a person who is the exact opposite. Their role is not to give you the love that you cherish most, their role is to show you how little of that love you have given to yourself. Some people call this a karmic relationship.

It took me forever to get this, which is why I am sharing it with you.

The divine union of masculine and feminine is not something out there with another person, it is something that is achieved within. When you get to this place of uniting these qualities within yourself, you will never seek out there anymore for someone to complete your recipe because you already are the cake.

This is not to say that people cannot have healthy relationships if they are missing some ingredients. Despite our all our efforts, no one is perfect. Their relationship will be one based on the unity of their qualities and they will compliment one another. This is called the icing on the cake.

But if you are a person who has been devastated by a past love, then my guess is you have not only given up on the prospect of an icing, you probably feel half baked or maybe like a tart.

Listen! There are plenty of beautiful tarts and a cake that is half baked can always go back in the oven or you can make a new one.

Either way, get back to the kitchen, get out a bowl and start throwing stuff in there. It just doesn’t matter if you think you’re missing an ingredient or not, the important thing is that you bake again. Before you know it, you’ll have your cake.

In the words of my friend’s mother, “Every pot has a lid” but in this case, every cake has a frosting. Maybe yours is one you’ve never tried. But you will never know this frosting, until you bake your cake.

Just another way of saying, “love the self!”