Run or Surrender

I talk about the collective a bit when I post card messages. The term collective simply means a group of objects, people, animals, or ideas as a single concept, or a single thing.

If you are reading my blog, then you are part of this collective. You resonate with what I write somehow and while you may or may not be fully awakened to all of the concepts I write about, you are at least intrigued. Unless of course you are one of those people who are too cowardice to speak with me, so you stalk me instead. Have at it! Maybe you will gain a little more self awareness.

When I speak of running or surrendering, I am talking about our emotions. Do you run from them or do you surrender to them? When we run we ignore, bypass and do not grow as a person. There is nothing wrong with this, unless of course you are wanting relationships that are fulfilling, joyous, genuine and loving.

Many people will stay in relationships that have conditions attached to them or are transactional in nature because it is all they know. This conditioning of co-dependence was brought about in childhood by a mother or father figure. In order to get love, you had to do something. If you did not do what was asked of you, you were ignored. This began your journey of abandonment and the only way you ever feel loved, is if you are with someone perpetuating the same cycle.

This wounding is so deep and engrained in you, that you actually refuse to look at it because it would be too painful for you. So instead, you run. You do not have fulfilling relationships with anyone because you withhold yourself emotionally out of fear of rejection, so your relationships are what I call “surfacy.”

This can work for you for awhile, but eventually it won’t. Your past always catches up with you. Always! And it will come in a myriad of ways. The Universe has this amazing ability to know exactly the lessons you need to learn at exactly the right time.

You might lose your job, get in an accident, lose a loved one to divorce, lose money, lose friends, your car might break down, you might get robbed. Hell! All of these things and more might happen to you, depending on how long you’ve been running.

Whatever it is you are avoiding, your lesson will come in that form. So if you are hoarding money, working too much or not being generous, you might have a financial gain and then a loss all at once. If you are deceptive in your relationships and only take and never give, eventually you will meet someone right out of a horror film.

At the end of the day all we have is our truth. It is the one thing that determines the path of our lives. This truth is our soul calling us to accept all that we are, without looking outside of ourselves for constant approval.

The truth is something a lot of us will not face. It’s not that we can’t, we simply choose not to. And while that is a choice that everyone is entitled to make, it is one that keeps you running instead of surrendering and eventually, no matter how hard you run, it will catch up with you.

The Universe calls you in many ways to surrender to the truth of who you are. The choice is yours whether you answer the call or not. But know this…it will only call a few times and eventually you will get that tower moment and be forced to finally look in the mirror and acknowledge who and what you really are.

Call Me By Your Name

I was a bit confused by the name of this song, but with so many biblical references in this video, I found out that it draws on Plato’s symposium; when one person meets with his other half, this is the highest form of love.

I was going to put a warning at the top about this video, but then I thought, what’s the point. While this video may not be for some, I think his vision and artistry and not to mention a pretty freaking great beat, are all winners. I love that he is embracing who he is and the person he wants to be with. Is there anything more sexy than that?

Apparently there is a lot of controversy around Lil Nas X and this video but if you read about him and his choice to do it, you gotta respect him.

What is it like to live a lie? I suppose we all do in some way or another. We might pretend to be happy when we really aren’t, be sad as f%^k and still smile when someone sees us or have anger running through our veins so strongly we can’t even believe no one notices. Regardless, The lies we live have a great impact on our soul.

We learn to lie in our childhood. It is not intentional, it is for survival. It is human nature for a child to want his/her parents approval. Therefore, You may have wanted to be an artist but you were told you would be a doctor instead. You may have loved someone from a different culture or religion than your own and your family quickly put the kabbash on it.

If our only source for advice are people we live with and trust, then it only stands to reason that we will become what they tell us to. And so the battle begins. For the rest of our lives we are caught up in what is expected of us in order to gain approval, rather then doing what makes us happy. In short, we pretend to be something we aren’t.

Why do people care so much about what others think? It’s exhausting! And you know what the funny thing is, most people really don’t give a shit about you, you just think they do. And the torturous part of this is that you are just replaying the childhood program of seeking approval.

This is pretty complex stuff, so let me break it down for you. You had a bad experience when you spoke your truth. Your subconscious has now stored this memory and you may not even be aware of it. Therefore, anything that comes remotely close to that memory of the time you spoke your truth sets off a warning bell and you stop. But it’s just a memory. It’s over. You have the power to stop this.

You do this by Embracing where you are. You are perfectly fine in this now moment. The past is over, the future is not yet here and to think of anything else other than this moment, is only causing you pain. When you get to this place, you see that there is no need for an agenda or to try and convince others of your beliefs.

You not only understand that not everyone is going to accept you, you simply don’t care. If people cannot handle your truth, then they aren’t your people. If someone says they love you , then they should love everything about you, not what you do for them or how that love might look to others. Love does not have conditions. Let me repeat that. Love does not have conditions. Manipulation, control and guilt do.

You are given an opportunity every single day to be a warrior of change; to Stand for what you want and embrace who you love.

Perhaps those of us who are not afraid of judgement or are perceived as too much by others for showing who we truly are; freak flag, stripper pole and all, should come with a warning label.

Hmmm… maybe that will be my next tattoo!

Wanna Know?

Sabrina Claudio has a lovely voice, but do you wanna know what I think is even far more beautiful? People who speak their truth.

The world is in desperate need of more Love, Compassion, Integrity and Voices right now. The latter being those who aren’t afraid to stand up for what they believe in, no matter what is going on around them or what others will think.

I love hearing the voices of people who are passionate about something, no matter what it is.

I am completely passionate about animals. All kinds! I worked for years (for free) helping to find abandoned animals new homes. Sometimes they found mine and ended up staying. My family is very good about this work I feel called to do and they have always assisted me in the process.

When I see someone being mean to an animal you know what I wanna do? I wanna say something to them, so I usually do. I have done this in the past and it didn’t bode well for the animal. The man I spoke with grabbed his dog by the neck even harder and I felt completely powerless.

But it has never stopped me. I’ve always said I will probably die helping animals. My voice will reach the ears of someone who refuses to hear what I have to say and they will shoot me. But it’s a risk I take because I refuse to sit back and not use the most powerful tool I have. My voice.

What do you use your voice for? Is it to spread lies or is it to spread love? Are you willing to have your voice heard, even when others may not agree?

No matter how squeaky, how obnoxious, loud or soft, your voice is needed more than ever now. And quite honestly, the world would love to hear it!