You Don’t Need a Hero, But Sometimes it Feels Good to be One for Someone Else

I love all things Universe! Messages, number sequence; it’s ways in which something outside of ourselves that we cannot explain, speaks to us. Like a constant barrage of information being thrown at you that you either choose to listen to or ignore.

I chose to ignore the signs, whatever you want to call them for a long time. And then finally, when they got to be too much, I was forced to answer them.

This morning the Universe sent me a big one. I had just picked up food from Starbucks for my youngest son. There are no cooking utensils in our house at this juncture and we are a day or two away from leaving it- God willing! It’s just easier and since I usually make his breakfast, Starbucks did it for me today.

As I was waiting to turn and make my way home, a homeless man who lives in our town passed in front of my car. I have seen him numerous times before. He has skin that looks as though it has seen a lot of sun and longer hair. I often wonder if he would like me to cut it but have never asked him. He is generally hunched over as he pushes all of his belongings up hills and around town.

I looked at him as he passed in front of me and tapped on my horn and then motioned to the side of the road. I got out of my car, waved to the person behind me to let them know I was getting out and gave the man ten dollars. “Have breakfast on me today” I said, and then got back in my car and left.

I am not a hero. But I do understand the value of people and those heros who have been mine. My sons, for who I am forever grateful, have been there for me whenever I need them and even when I think I don’t. My cat, Milo and every dog I have ever rescued, who in actuality, rescued me. And of course, my sister and her husband who have been there for me more times than I can count. My mother too, since she always is there to listen, even when I harp on about the same old thing.

I am grateful for these people in my life and that’s why I understand how a simple gesture and an acknowledgement of someone in need and doing what you can to help them make their day just a little better, is so important.

I do believe in heros because I know many. And because I have been so blessed by them, it is effortless for me to bless others. I also trust in the Universe and it’s divine guidance and therefore I know, I will always be financially abundant.

Money is just energy but so many people become trapped by the illusion of it. In the end it is simply an exchange for services rendered and nothing more. And sometimes that service you are receiving, is the incredible feeling you get, by giving to someone in need.

I hope the person behind me saw what I did and went on their day and did an act of kindness to someone else. I believe in the good in people when they are seemingly at their worst. We don’t know what drives a person to do what they do, we only know what drives us.

Let your driver be a hero. The world is in great of need of them.

Mix The Vibe

This song literally goes on forever! But I like the beat of it, just like I like mixing the vibe.

When you mix the vibe, you attract different people. This can be good or bad. I choose good. I attracted bad long enough. Bad drags you down, steals your shine and makes it their own, all while leaving you utterly depleted.

Once you mix the vibe in a positive way, you attract people who are doing the same. I’m talking about people who know their worth and need not steal your pearls to try and make themselves out to be something they are not, especially when they are incapable of producing an original thought.

Yesterday I had the pleasure of working with some really awesome people. They were all independent and relied on no one to fulfill them. They were confident, outgoing, attractive and intelligent. I knew this was a turning point for me and a testament to all of the work I have done on myself. You see, when you raise your vibe, you attract people who have done the same.

You know your current state of vibe by the people that are around you. I cannot stress enough how important it is to surround yourself with people who vibe high. The higher you vibe, the more abundance you attract. Abundance is not just money; it’s a way of life. It’s the relationships you bring in, your quality of life, your health, mental state, etc. Your vibration is everything!

If you have toxic people in your life, no matter how hard you work, you will never reach the state of abundance you are trying to. It is literally impossible. Toxic people have a very toxic energy and their negativity directly effects your vibration, which effects your manifestations.

Here’s how negative energy from negative people works. When you are with a person who does not love themselves, they are highly manipulative and will do and say things to chip away at your self esteem in order to build theirs up. There is actually a term for it and it was made into a movie called “Gaslight.” They are jealous of your accomplishments and will try and undermine you at every cost. You are completely unaware of this of course, because you can’t even imagine someone would do this, especially when they claim to care about you.

But when you start to think about all of the opportunities you have had in front of you and somehow they never worked out, no matter how hard you worked, you have to pause and reflect on what could possibly be the problem. Your inclination might to be to work harder, smarter, take classes, meet more people, etc. But even then after all that, you still can’t manage to get where you imagine yourself to be.

And here’s why. When you are with a person who is toxic, they literally suck the life out of you. You are always trying to convince them that you care, that they matter. You are always placating them, building them up and talking them off the ledge because their erratic behavior and poor decision making threatens your security, stability and safety. They are literally always one step away from imploding and they will take everyone who is in their life, with them. They do this so frequently, you’re literally a therapist who is on-call. So how can you possibly have any energy left for your passions?

When you get to this place of complete and utter awe of how no matter how hard you try, nothing seems to manifest, you suddenly realize that the problem was never you, it was the toxic environment you live in, you start setting boundaries.

You absolutely have to say no to people who take your goodness and give nothing in return. But be prepared! The person you cut off will lash out at you, call you names and trash talk you to anyone who will give them an audience. And while this is hurtful, you need to understand that it is very telling of the person they were all along.

But the good new is…the Universe will reward you. It’s as though it says, “Finally! I thought that b-atch was deaf and blind after all the signs we sent her to remove that toxic blankety blank from her life.” And it’s as if, like magic, the abundance flows.

So if signs are being sent your way, do not ignore them. The more you ignore them, the stronger they get and you don’t want to get that tower moment where you don’t dodge the bullets that are being sent your way.

These signs are trying to guide you on a path that is better for you. So you can either keep ignoring the signs, or let that tower hit. Because if you are a person who is conscious, it’s comin for ya! The Universe will not allow you to remain small.

I am so juked about my future! I have never been more positive, because I am leaving behind all negativity and everything and everyone who ever stole my shine, my pearls, and literally plagiarized my brilliance and tried to pass it off like it was their own.

Keep shining! The brighter you shine, the more you attract shinier people and shinier options. And those bitter, empty, self loathing people who tried to diminish your shine, will become nothing more than a lesson you needed to learn in order to love yourself. It’s a cruel one for sure and if you are a person who has suffered through a relationship with a covert narcissist, just know you will never have to repeat this lesson again.

Keep shining! You may never get back the time you spent with someone like that, but just know your shine, really pisses them off. It’s karmic justice.

Run or Surrender

I talk about the collective a bit when I post card messages. The term collective simply means a group of objects, people, animals, or ideas as a single concept, or a single thing.

If you are reading my blog, then you are part of this collective. You resonate with what I write somehow and while you may or may not be fully awakened to all of the concepts I write about, you are at least intrigued. Unless of course you are one of those people who are too cowardice to speak with me, so you stalk me instead. Have at it! Maybe you will gain a little more self awareness.

When I speak of running or surrendering, I am talking about our emotions. Do you run from them or do you surrender to them? When we run we ignore, bypass and do not grow as a person. There is nothing wrong with this, unless of course you are wanting relationships that are fulfilling, joyous, genuine and loving.

Many people will stay in relationships that have conditions attached to them or are transactional in nature because it is all they know. This conditioning of co-dependence was brought about in childhood by a mother or father figure. In order to get love, you had to do something. If you did not do what was asked of you, you were ignored. This began your journey of abandonment and the only way you ever feel loved, is if you are with someone perpetuating the same cycle.

This wounding is so deep and engrained in you, that you actually refuse to look at it because it would be too painful for you. So instead, you run. You do not have fulfilling relationships with anyone because you withhold yourself emotionally out of fear of rejection, so your relationships are what I call “surfacy.”

This can work for you for awhile, but eventually it won’t. Your past always catches up with you. Always! And it will come in a myriad of ways. The Universe has this amazing ability to know exactly the lessons you need to learn at exactly the right time.

You might lose your job, get in an accident, lose a loved one to divorce, lose money, lose friends, your car might break down, you might get robbed. Hell! All of these things and more might happen to you, depending on how long you’ve been running.

Whatever it is you are avoiding, your lesson will come in that form. So if you are hoarding money, working too much or not being generous, you might have a financial gain and then a loss all at once. If you are deceptive in your relationships and only take and never give, eventually you will meet someone right out of a horror film.

At the end of the day all we have is our truth. It is the one thing that determines the path of our lives. This truth is our soul calling us to accept all that we are, without looking outside of ourselves for constant approval.

The truth is something a lot of us will not face. It’s not that we can’t, we simply choose not to. And while that is a choice that everyone is entitled to make, it is one that keeps you running instead of surrendering and eventually, no matter how hard you run, it will catch up with you.

The Universe calls you in many ways to surrender to the truth of who you are. The choice is yours whether you answer the call or not. But know this…it will only call a few times and eventually you will get that tower moment and be forced to finally look in the mirror and acknowledge who and what you really are.

Doors

They say that when one door closes, another one opens. But what do they say of doors that don’t open?

I say that doors that do not open for you, are doors that are not meant to be walked through. This is a hard lesson to learn, but one that is paramount to healing.

While we might try our best to open a door that we have our heart set on, pound on it, maybe even try to pry that sucker open, it still won’t budge. So we take out the dynamite and alas, the door opens, but not without conditions. And trust me, those conditions will beat you down so badly, you won’t even recognize yourself anymore.

Many doors have been closed to me with acting, opportunities in general and people. Often times when a door did not open for me, I would sit back and re-evaluate and think about another way to open it. Perhaps if I came at it from this angle, or tried a little harder, tried a little less, but when you have a burning desire or a dream, it is very hard to walk away from that door.

But eventually you have to. You realize that no amount of pushing on that door is going to open it and the more you think about that door, the weaker you get. You’re diminished. Spent. And so, you are forced to surrender in order to survive because your heart can’t handle any more disappointment. And in this space of surrender, you empower yourself to walk away from that door.

Because I have done this, I understand that when doors are not opening for me, they simply aren’t my doors. If you can grasp this one concept, you will save yourself a whole lot of pain.

The doors that are meant for you are seamless. All you have to do is simply walk towards that door, knock and it opens. From that door comes another and then another still. Eventually doors appear out of nowhere and you don’t even have to knock anymore.

A closed door is simply a sign that you are headed in the wrong direction. Whatever is behind that door is not for you and in fact could be very toxic. You will live to regret it if you insist on Barging your way through it. This is divine protection, not rejection and once you understand this, you will empower yourself enough to quickly walk away from the doors that aren’t opening and run towards the ones that are.

Tic…Boom!

I have mentioned that my son plays football in previous posts. Friday I took him to a new trainer. Obviously playing football for fun and making it your entire focus are two different things.

This trainer was an hour from our house. It seems as though everything football oriented is over and hour from our house. The traffic can make it more and usually does.

In the past I would have complained about this. I’m not a fan of getting on the highway or driving, which is why I like big cities where I can walk…or the south where I can ride a bike. I will most definitely live in one of these places when he is done with school; the city might come sooner if the commute gets to be too much for him next year. But since I have been focusing less on outcomes and more on the present moment, he is happy here, so this is where we stay.

When I am not focused on me, I am focused on him. What is it he requires? Gain more weight; make more food. Workout more; take him to the gym. Getting more sleep; wake from my slumber to get him off his computer, which happens to be his only form of a social life due to football. Most days are spent trying to help him reach his goal. Which is easy for me to do, because it’s something I do for myself now and we all need someone in our corner.

So when a guy knows a guy who lives out somewhere near us and not in Jersey, I agreed to take him. I didn’t even think twice about driving to the middle of nowhere! We laughed, shared stories and he even confided in me about one of his friends having a problem and how he was trying to help her.

I enjoyed every minute of being with him; even when he played his music, which I struggle to like sometimes. We even got stuck in traffic but I was so focused on listening to him and seeing how insightful he is, I had a great time.

I share this story with you because I heard this song this morning and it reminded me of another key theme to manifesting. When you have complete trust in the Universe and allow it to bring you what you need instead of chasing after it, things just start to happen for the better. Life gets easier instead of harder.

One coach leads to another coach which leads to something else; something better. Everything aligns so seamlessly, without you even having to do anything. It appears to be simply “gifted” to you.

The auditions have been rolling in for me; really fun ones too, more me. I’ve been selling my cards on all platforms without doing any advertising and I know this has nothing to do with me doing anything. It has everything to do with me doing nothing.

This energy of allowing instead of controlling is paramount to manifesting. When you put something into action that you really want, you are showing the powers that be that you are committed to it. No matter how much you are tested, you stay the course. You keep doing the inner work every time you are tested and you learn to discern very quickly. When you get to this place of inner peace, you are rewarded. It is the tic before the boom.

So if you want to see fireworks in your life, embrace all of the moments throughout the day. Focus on what you have instead of what you have lost and do not give your energy (attention) to anything or anyone who tries to take you back there.

Before you know it, you will be amazed at how seamless life can be. Surrender to what is instead of trying to make it something it is not or ever will be.

I insist on being a part of the journey my son is on, because I want to be there when he makes it to his destination. There will be people along your journey that are not meant to be a part of your destination. It’s okay. We all have our own paths. Don’t try to make someone walk yours with you if they don’t want to or simply can’t. This is one of the main reasons you will not manifest what you want. Your energy is scattered and going backwards instead of forwards.

Find inner peace, stay present and don’t allow anyone to mess with your vibe. If you can do this…Boom! You will be a manifesting magnet.

Tic…Boom!

I have mentioned that my son plays football in previous posts. Friday I took him to a new trainer. Obviously playing football for fun and making it your entire focus are two different things.

This trainer was an hour from our house. It seems as though everything football oriented is over and hour from our house. The traffic can make it more and usually does.

In the past I would have complained about this. I’m not a fan of getting on the highway or driving, which is why I like big cities where I can walk…or the south where I can ride a bike. I will most definitely live in one of these places when he is done with school; the city might come sooner if the commute gets to be too much for him next year. But since I have been focusing less on outcomes and more on the present moment, he is happy here, so this is where we stay.

When I am not focused on me, I am focused on him. What is it he requires? Gain more weight; make more food. Workout more; take him to the gym. Getting more sleep; wake from my slumber to get him off his computer, which happens to be his only form of a social life due to football. Most days are spent trying to help him reach his goal. Which is easy for me to do, because it’s something I do for myself now and we all need someone in our corner.

So when a guy knows a guy who lives out somewhere near us and not in Jersey, I agreed to take him. I didn’t even think twice about driving to the middle of nowhere! We laughed, shared stories and he even confided in me about one of his friends having a problem and how he was trying to help her.

I enjoyed every minute of being with him; even when he played his music, which I struggle to like sometimes. We even got stuck in traffic but I was so focused on listening to him and seeing how insightful he is, I had a great time.

I share this story with you because I heard this song this morning and it reminded me of another key theme to manifesting. When you have complete trust in the Universe and allow it to bring you what you need instead of chasing after it, things just start to happen for the better. Life gets easier instead of harder.

One coach leads to another coach which leads to something else; something better. Everything aligns so seamlessly, without you even having to do anything. It appears to be simply “gifted” to you.

The auditions have been rolling in for me; really fun ones too, more me. I’ve been selling my cards on all platforms without doing any advertising and I know this has nothing to do with me doing anything. It has everything to do with me doing nothing.

This energy of allowing instead of controlling is paramount to manifesting. When you put something into action that you really want, you are showing the powers that be that you are committed to it. No matter how much you are tested, you stay the course. You keep doing the inner work every time you are tested and you learn to discern very quickly. When you get to this place of inner peace, you are rewarded. It is the tic before the boom.

So if you want to see fireworks in your life, embrace all of the moments throughout the day. Focus on what you have instead of what you have lost and do not give your energy (attention) to anything or anyone who tries to take you back there.

Before you know it, you will be amazed at how seamless life can be. Surrender to what is instead of trying to make it something it is not or ever will be.

I insist on being a part of the journey my son is on, because I want to be there when he makes it to his destination. There will be people along your journey that are not meant to be a part of your destination. It’s okay. We all have our own paths. Don’t try to make someone walk yours with you if they don’t want to or simply can’t. This is one of the main reasons you will not manifest what you want. Your energy is scattered and going backwards instead of forwards.

Find inner peace, stay present and don’t allow anyone to mess with your vibe. If you can do this…Boom! You will be a manifesting magnet.

Follow the Breadcrumbs

Are you seeing repeating numbers? 1111,111,222,333,444,or 555?

These are signs from the Universe, Angels, whatever you believe, to wake up and start living your life; to essentially be a gypsy.

What is a gypsy anyway? A free-spirited person who roams the land searching for a better place.

If you have received this call, via repeating numbers, you are being asked to answer it. Sure, you can ignore it for awhile, but eventually the numbers show up all the time. I saw 1111 for over a year twice a day. Sometimes I would see 1111 and then 111 all in the same day.

I didn’t know what the numbers meant, I just found it peculiar, so I looked it up. This is what it said, “1111 is a wake-up call that tells us to prepare for something greater to come. It’s a time to manifest our intentions and take action to achieve our visions. Remember: thoughts are energy, and energy creates! Seeing the first 1111 can help us to know it’s time to take the first step and incite action.”

What action you might ask. Well, anything you feel called to do. Maybe you’re a banker and you really want to be a painter. Take a class! Who knows where it will lead. The point is, you do something that nurtures your soul.

1111 is a call to your soul. Not the person you thought you were supposed to be for others, but the one you authentically are. You are being asked to be the gypsy. To take flight on a journey back to the self; the one you lost as you grew up and grew away from who you truly are.

I did not post yesterday on any of my platforms. I didn’t feel called to. The whole idea of the card reading page is for you to get back to your intuition. We all have it, we just block it out. Some of us don’t even hear the little voice inside us because we have become numb to it and listen to all of the ones around us instead.

Follow your intuition and if you don’t know what that sounds like, follow the numbers instead. They are trying to lead you back to you.

There are many more Angel Numbers, these are just the ones I see frequently.

111-All about you baby! It’s your destiny. It’s time to start manifesting.

222- You are out of balance. Reassess actions and priorities.

333-Acknowledge your higher purpose.

444- Also about balance but positivity and hopefulness. You are on the right track.

555-Change is on the horizon.

Let It Flow

How open are you to change? Are you loosey goosey to it? Willing to dip one toe in the pool or the whole foot? Or maybe you’re too rigid to change anything. In that case, you’re nowhere near the water!

Being in the flow is super easy; it’s where we allow instead of control. This simply means we wake up, may have our schedule, but if something takes us off course, we understand that we are being directed elsewhere for our highest good. Acceptance of this is the key to our happiness.

When people don’t go with the flow and are so set on staying in control, they miss out on all of the wonderful things that life is trying to bring them. It’s really interesting to observe people who are very controlled. It’s almost painful to see how routined they are. In there quest to stay in control of everything, they essentially become controlled because they are no longer living life due to their conviction of calculating their every move. How exhausting! I’m tired just writing that.

Letting go of outcomes and going with the flow is very empowering. But if I were to tell this to a person who is always in control, they would say the exact opposite. The real truth about control, is that it is an illusion. There is no control. You cannot control anything!

The more you go within and change your perceptions of people and understand that most of us are just repeating patterns and programs from our childhood, the less you feel the need to try and control anything. You understand that people are just playing out their own insecurities and they seldom, if ever, have anything to do with you.

The ironic thing about control is that when we are so committed to one path, life has a way of sending us what is called a “tower moment” so that we can be put on another one. These tower moments are generally pretty awful, but if you look at it from a higher perspective, you see that you had plenty of notices beforehand, you just chose to ignore them because you were too busy controlling how things were supposed to go according to your plan. You see, no matter how great we think our best-laid plans are, life will step in and say, “I have a better one! Trust me!”

Since I have been going with the flow I have created more abundance in my life. I don’t push for outcomes or results or have any expectations, especially of other people. I have learned to be my best advocate. All of the love, the acceptance and joy I once sought out there, I now find within.

This new way of living allows me to wake up every day with excitement. It’s like Christmas as a kid every day. I try and keep to my morning routine as best I can and then allow the rest of the day to unfold. I might have a list of things I would like to do, but when I allow for anything and everything, I usually have a pretty remarkable day.

This is called being in the flow and it is when we can magnetize anything! So if you want to be a money magnet, a love magnet or any other kind of magnet, you have to allow yourself to be in the flow. How can something wonderful even fit into your life, if you are always controlling every aspect of your day?

Be in control or don’t. I’ll be over here going with the flow cause that’s where all the magic is!

Signs

You didn’t think I was talking about signs, as in street ones, did you? Come on!

These signs that the Universe sends you could come via dreams, conversations, songs or epiphanies, and they are all different ways that it is trying to communicate with you. All you have to do is piece them together.

I have had these signs for as long as I can remember… at least 11 or 12 years now. I did’t even know that they were signs, I just knew something was going on that wasn’t the norm. 1111 and 111 were the most common. Every single time I looked at the clock I would see these numbers. Often times I still wake up at these times. Occasionally I see 222 or 333 and 555.

I learned that these were angel numbers. Who knew such a thing existed! And it’s not like you can go around asking people if they see angel numbers. Right!?

The more I tried to ignore the signs and especially the dreams…oh my God, the dreams! I had full on conversations with people in them! It was as though I was living another life in my dream state, learning all about people on a soul level. I thought I was going mad.

I mean, I was dreaming after all and had not an ounce of proof that the people I was talking to, were having the dreams too. It’s not like you can go up to people in the waking world and say, “Hey, remember last night when we talked about…” That would be right up there with talking about angel numbers, wouldn’t it?  Let’s face it, it’s not a conversation most people have.

But if you are having any of these things happen to you, than you are not the norm. You’re special! At least that’s how I choose to think about it. It makes me feel…well, more sane.

These signs can be overwhelming. At the height of mine, I felt like I had no choice but to try and talk about what was happening to me, but my trying to open up about it was met with crickets. Talk about all of your abandonment issues coming up to the surface! When you are faced with pain you can either ignore it or go within. Most people ignore it because it’s easier.

But if you’re seeing signs, then you already know ignoring it isn’t an option. It’s like you’re pushed off a cliff and forced to face all of your childhood wounds and then go about healing them. And when this happens to you, you are on your own, because anybody who hasn’t experienced the signs, will think you’re speaking another language and look at you like maybe it’s time you took some medication.

But you don’t need any meds. You just need information. What the hell is going on? I started typing in the numbers. One thing lead to another, almost as if I was being lead to information and surprisingly there was a ton of it out there. After awhile (yes I still have dreams and still see signs all the time),  you learn the real value of discernment and have a deep knowing of who is full of crap and who is not.

The signs are ever present in our world. If you are experiencing any of these things, take this post as a sign that you are not nuts. You ARE seeing things, hearing things and dreaming things for a reason. What you choose to do with these signs is up to you.

But you must know this…these signs are not something you have control over. You can’t quit them. Believe me, I’ve tried. At this juncture I have simply surrendered to them because it’s easier. I keep doing my thing, living my life and loving myself, and trust that I am being guided on a path that is for my highest good.

My advice to you is this: trust the process, know that you’re not crazy and take comfort in the fact that you are not alone. The most wonderful thing to come of this is that you master your emotions, don’t look outside of yourself for fulfillment and blindly trust that in doing so, amazing things will happen to you and do.